Addiction (part 1)

You never knew you
Needed it until they gave
It to you.

Young and naive
Maybe you might have dreamt of it;
Pretended it.

You might have asked for it;
Sought it, prayed for it
Imagined it, feared it.
But when it comes
The rush is beyond belief.

You never quite get as high
As that very first time.;
Hell, I don’t know, maybe
You do – but you
Still chase it anyways.

The combat high;
My drug of choice.
Like the junkie plunging the
Needle into his vein,
You know this will kill you
But you do it anyway.

You need it.
You hate it, but you need it;
To get it you’ll do stupid
Things that bend beyond
The thin gray line between
Heroic and unsafe.

Crazy they say – no.
A medal seeker perhaps,
A psychopath, absolutely mental
Anyone who’d ask for that, but
No – you don’t want or
Ask for it; you simply need it.

And if you don’t yet,
It’ll come to you anyways.

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About anotherwarriorpoet

Mathew Bocian served as a Captain in the United States Army with the Stryker Brigade and was deployed to Mosul and Tal'Afar in 2004 - 2005, and to Baghdad for The Surge in 2007 - 2008. He left the Army in 2012 and now uses his poetry as a way to heal from the traumas of war, while attempting to express to readers the realities of war. He is the recipient of the Bronze Star and Purple Heart, and holds a master's from the Graduate School for Public and International Affairs at the University of Pittsburgh.
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2 Responses to Addiction (part 1)

  1. robakers says:

    You said it well my brother…hours of sheer boredom…minutes of sheer terror and memories to last a lifetime.

    Happy Veteran’s Day

    rob

    Like

  2. Pingback: Addiction (part 2) | The Ghosts of Tal'Afar

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