Getting by with a little help from my friends

So after much consideration, a little cajoling by friends and a mentor (thank you, Stan!) I took the big leap and I self-published an eBook. I feel like this is a shameless self promotion but I have been assured that it is not.

Living in the Shadow is the tale of my life and living with PTSD for the past decade after having first served in Iraq. I wrote it because I often find that PTSD isn’t something that folks seem to understand, and if they do they still do not grasp what it means. I secretly think a lot of us live with it but don’t recognize that we do (or refuse to admit so). I wrote this because the entire reason I started this blog was to put my writing out there into cyberspace – to see if the words and thoughts I’d been jotting down over the years could do more than just help me. I want to see if they help others.

And so far folks seem to enjoy my writing.

This eBook does not detail any combat or combat situations; instead I tell my story from the day I stepped off the plane after OIF III and the path I have taken since those early days. I address some very soul-bearing and personal things that I am not proud of nor do I really want to flaunt to the world to see – but it was me. This is ME. And I accept that.

In a way it was easier to write about all the crazy times I had and the feelings and guilt I still feel – what is harder for me is to publish the things you read here, that deal with the war and are the product of the demons on my soul when I write.

So I am not saying ‘go buy my book’. I don’t care if you buy it to be truthful. But if you are a veteran, know a veteran or have PTSD from military service or not – I think reading this (short) eBook will be eye-opening and enlightening for you. Remember brothers and sisters – you are NOT alone.

Living in the Shadow: PTSD, and life post-deployment is available on Amazon’s Kindle store for your e-reader (if you do that sort of thing).


About anotherwarriorpoet

Mathew Bocian served as a Captain in the United States Army with the Stryker Brigade and was deployed to Mosul and Tal'Afar in 2004 - 2005, and to Baghdad for The Surge in 2007 - 2008. He left the Army in 2012 and now uses his poetry as a way to heal from the traumas of war, while attempting to express to readers the realities of war. He is the recipient of the Bronze Star and Purple Heart, and holds a master's from the Graduate School for Public and International Affairs at the University of Pittsburgh.
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7 Responses to Getting by with a little help from my friends

  1. Matthew, I just ordered your e-book. I have really enjoyed your posts on The Ghosts of Tal’Afar. Are you going to continue your blog? I think a lot of us are hoping you do. Thank you so much for your service. I was born in 1959, on the cusp on the tail end of the baby boomers, and was not eligible for the Draft. Something inside me stopped me from volunteering for military service. There are days when I wish I did. Then again, there are days when I am glad I didn’t. I am very grateful to the men and women who do join the military. God bless you.

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    • First and foremost – thank you for not only reading my work here but finding somewhere inside yourself where it’s connected. I hope the eBook is just as informational and interesting as the posts I have here.

      And Yes! This blog isn’t going away anytime soon and remains an outlet for me and will continue to do so. Admittedly I’ve been a bit busy and I’m a little behind in posting (but I’d already intended to correct that this weekend).

      Thank for your patronage and support here.

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  2. Darque says:

    Matthew, don’t ever worry about promoting your book on your blog – I follow others where the authors of the blogs have written eBooks & many more are working on memoirs, books, etc – I may even publish more than my poetry one day… So far, I’m just featuring small snippets of my life (usually in the form of poetry, bits & pieces & a few videos that I have produced) with informative & interesting articles others have posted on my site. The best way to sell books is by promoting them to your readers, followers & friends – especially if you’re building a community here on WordPress. It’s really tough to put yourself out there for everyone to see…

    I just bought & downloaded the kindle copy of your eBook & I’m looking forward to reading it as I scroll through your thoughts here… I’ve enjoyed your blog since I discovered it a few weeks ago and you can count me as one of your supporters (I fully, unwaveringly, unapologetically AND proudly support ALL members of the military – past, present & future. I also enjoy military memoirs, both historical and current…

    I have Complex PTSD and I know that it’s an often misunderstood diagnosis… It’s also often difficult to get the correct diagnosis (it took me awhile to find a psychiatrist experienced in treating PTSD). I do all that I can to help share information within the military & civilian lives in the hopes of helping (in my small way) to remove the stigma associated with PTSD and all mental health topics. I agree that many people who have PTSD don’t even know it – or don’t want to acknowledge it – because of the stigmas attached to mental health issues. We keep writing, just hoping to reach out and touch the life of another – to let them know that they are not alone, they are understood & cared about – that they can (and will) heal with time. There is no magical answer: you never forget, but you can learn to live again. Clichés, to be sure, but also true.

    Never forget that YOU are a REAL hero – you put on that uniform, stepped up and served your country – and that means EVERYTHING. Wishing you all the best with the book… And, yes, please keep writing here on your blog.

    I’ve also chosen to reblog this post to share with my readers (in the hope that others will read the book, too).

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