So after much consideration, a little cajoling by friends and a mentor (thank you, Stan!) I took the big leap and I self-published an eBook. I feel like this is a shameless self promotion but I have been assured that it is not.
Living in the Shadow is the tale of my life and living with PTSD for the past decade after having first served in Iraq. I wrote it because I often find that PTSD isn’t something that folks seem to understand, and if they do they still do not grasp what it means. I secretly think a lot of us live with it but don’t recognize that we do (or refuse to admit so). I wrote this because the entire reason I started this blog was to put my writing out there into cyberspace – to see if the words and thoughts I’d been jotting down over the years could do more than just help me. I want to see if they help others.
And so far folks seem to enjoy my writing.
This eBook does not detail any combat or combat situations; instead I tell my story from the day I stepped off the plane after OIF III and the path I have taken since those early days. I address some very soul-bearing and personal things that I am not proud of nor do I really want to flaunt to the world to see – but it was me. This is ME. And I accept that.
In a way it was easier to write about all the crazy times I had and the feelings and guilt I still feel – what is harder for me is to publish the things you read here, that deal with the war and are the product of the demons on my soul when I write.
So I am not saying ‘go buy my book’. I don’t care if you buy it to be truthful. But if you are a veteran, know a veteran or have PTSD from military service or not – I think reading this (short) eBook will be eye-opening and enlightening for you. Remember brothers and sisters – you are NOT alone.
Living in the Shadow: PTSD, and life post-deployment is available on Amazon’s Kindle store for your e-reader (if you do that sort of thing).