What You Don’t Know

The 1st and the 15th became important days

Out of necessity a new way to track progress

By those increments of time. For all I’d done

And all I’d had – so much firepower unleashed

At my simple command; that was then.


The 1st and the 15th now sad days of need

In the apartments when the move-outs occurred

When I stood in the dumpster, digging out the

Appliances and furniture left behind, to sell

On Craigslist; pay bills, afford to eat.


What was, was; what was will never be. This is me now.

The neighbors look on in disgust, or laugh. My pride I

Swallowed long ago, but that will not sustain me.

If they only knew…

About anotherwarriorpoet

Mathew Bocian served as a Captain in the United States Army with the Stryker Brigade and was deployed to Mosul and Tal'Afar in 2004 - 2005, and to Baghdad for The Surge in 2007 - 2008. He left the Army in 2012 and now uses his poetry as a way to heal from the traumas of war, while attempting to express to readers the realities of war. He is the recipient of the Bronze Star and Purple Heart, and holds a master's from the Graduate School for Public and International Affairs at the University of Pittsburgh.
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